Ever since I was a little girl, I have dreamed of a real world full of love, caring for one another, assisting one anothe,r in trials and tribulations. Yep, honestly, I used to lie in bed imagining what I could do to make a better world. I knew at a young age if I didn’t do anything, we could lose not only our planet, but mankind’s integrity. Old soul I guess. But honestly, I just could never stop thinking about what I could do to inspire more love, peace, joy and beauty in the world. I always believed that somehow, someway, I could make a difference.
I guess there are those of us, some might call Angels that have the calling at a very young age to inspire the good juju that life is made of. As an artist, this has been my calling, and in this journey, there are callings within the calling. You know that kind I am talking about, like you’re walking down a road and signs keep showing up day after day and then one day it hits you!
A few months ago, around my best friend’s birthday, I found myself profoundly frustrated. It had been years since I felt this sadness. It was a simple case of, I missed her, wanted to see her, have coffee with her; you know the feeling. You’ve lost the person and as time goes on, you deal with it. Although spiritually alert and awake to the journey my heart embarks on, in this moment, I was a bit frustrated about this tapping on my heart.
Then a few days later, I got the news about another dear friend engulfed by the disease, and even in this moment, as I write to you now, my intention is not to focus on the negativity, but rather the joy in the journey of healing, the unexpected gifts that they bring to the heart and the soul. And every song playing on the radio, right now, totally aligns with my message to share with you. Angel or not, you are here and I am here, and together, we create in a sisterhood of support.
Let’s face it. Breast Cancer is not a pretty subject! Actually, up until now, I really couldn’t even say the words, and for 8 years since losing my soul sister, I had grown to despise them. FRUSTRATING!
And like some mysterious evil force lurking in the corners of our minds, fear opens the door and invites our thoughts to sadness and decay. And in the darkness we find life jackets of hope & faith, the journey we embrace moves us through, either to enlightenment or darkness.
As the months went by, ‘The Calling’ unfolded itself like a rose, gently opening up is petals, with a few pricks of the thorns. I became a magnet for messages about women supporting breast cancer awareness, associates being diagnosed, and it tapped on my heart for 2 months until I could no longer ignore the calling.
And then it hit me, like an arrow straight to my heart. I opened Facebook at an hour that I would never usually open it up, and I was profoundly led to visit a friend’s page, and OMG! There was Erin’s sweet face. I sat crying in sadness & joy, all mixed into one, as my heart flared with deep purpose & passion. ‘The Calling’ was yelling to me like a huge megaphone to my heart. This was the day that my best friend had passed, 8 years ago. And I asked myself, how could it be 8 years had passed? And instantaneously, ‘The Calling’ became as clear as a bright new day. It was time for me to paint a piece celebrating her life and to transform the struggle that every woman goes through with Breast Cancer, into a piece of art painted especially for survivors, as my way of saying, you are not alone and we are here to support you.
And like a train that is headed in one direction, everything started aligning magically to this deep purpose and passion. The very next day, my daughter Katie called me, telling me about a cool event where we could show our art and use it to inspire people in a race. It happened to be the Susan G. Komen Race for the Cure Los Angeles County and my lovely daughter knew that this would be my cup of tea.
And as I started creating this new heart, sketching it out, giving it deep thought, all the signs of inspiration led me to imbue it with healing life-energy, a kind of joyful knowingness, a new light to a very dark subject. I found my way to total healing that I could share with the world in unconditional love.
With each brushstroke and every aspect of creating this painting, all the signs called me to bring a new type of joy; a pure light of truth, that it all starts with you and whatever your situation. and whatever your barriers in life, it all starts with ‘Believe’! In each step of this journey, you were with me every step of the way, and even in this moment when I speak to you now, I reached my heart arms out to hold you and together, we stand side-by-side and together we ‘Believe’.
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